one's lonely self

2008-10-21T17:21:00.013+08:00

RAYA CRAZE WITH ME BESTEST MATES! BOTAK INCLUDED! haha

2008-07-20T23:29:00.003+08:00

now lets see.
sentosa was awesome despite the rains.
still it was enjoyable.
well i was glad i brought my guitar. or else things would get seriously bland.
too bad i didnt have the pics. my limbs were sore as hell when i got burried.
i looked like a cooked lobster when i dug myself out.
well with the help of nabil that is.
haha.

managed to get under the spotlight somehow or rather.
heh.
made new friends along the way. some i couldnt even remember whom.
nice people with perculiar names.
but still, things went seriously unexpected and even much unplanned.
guess that was my unplugged moment yea boys?
cmon, told you the G man had a few tricks up his sleeve.
never doubt the G man.
nyeaha.

on a slighter note, i wanna learn to SHUFFLE.
hahaha
MAAAAT REPPPPP.

done.

2008-07-06T17:55:00.002+08:00

last day of hols.
finally.

well all was not lost on the 4th of july.
technically early morning on the 5th of july but what the heck.
wanna say thanks to a buddy of mine who made things a lot better which
obvioulsy another person couldnt.
and again on behalf of everyone i'm sorry we left you in the dark.
i'll try to make things better. trust me. i know it must've been hard but hopefully
time heals.
really appreaciated what you've done for me and in seriously in debted to you.
come and watch us at homecoming alright.
FREE FOOD! haha.

and to everyone who wished me a blissful birthday, thank you loads once again.
i might have forgotten to thank some of you but deeply in me i'm very thankful.
nows time my own personal mission, lets get things started.

done.

2008-07-04T10:57:00.002+08:00

4th of july.
what a wonderful birthday.
let me do the honours.

first off.
had a wonderful time waking up 8 in the morning.
just to send some rascals to the hospital for their check up.
i had to be the one doing it since i'm the uncle. apparently thier mom
was so busy untill she cant make the trip. but its alright. i'm glad to
run ur errands for you even tho its MY birthday. so its cool.
i know. i'm a very good uncle dont you think.
exciting.

hmm.
since the party was cancelled because i just got to know some idiot booked the wrong
date. or mayb it was not called for at the first place. i dont know. but its alright.
i enjoyed the excitement of getting to know that i'm going to enjoy MY EIGHTEENTH
birthday with the closest people in my life and then having to know it was taken away
just like that. anyways, refund the money. keep it for yourslef. you need it more then i do.
i dont care anymore. mayb this EIGHTEENTH birthday is a lesson for myself. never EVER
again get your hopes high. nahs its not your fault. even tho you still could have called earlier. WEEKS earlier if i might add. i still could have saved some shame for myself tho. but still, enjoyed the moment trying to think of apologies for those close people of mine. having all the burden of their hopes and enjoyment on my shoulders was something i hadnt felt. thank you for that. even tho i feel i have let so many people down. but i'm sure i'll get over it. i'll be like you. so easily i'll talk about how i'd enjoy myself on this day, how it would be A BRITHDAY TO REMEMBER. i would never imply its your fault. its always another persons fault. there you go. see, i'm not that evil after all.

even tho it breaks my heart to shattered pieces knowing you could ever do this. no worries. i'll get over it. one way or another no doubt. i'd remember this day perfectly. how an EIGHTEENTH year old pussy cried his heart out just for a fact that he wasnt able to enjoy his EIGHTEENTH birthday like how his other friends did. i'll always REMEMBER.

basically if you people out there to discriminate me in any way or what so ever. read. FUCK OFF. i'm being emotional. so? and once again to the people i've made hopes high. i'm in a million ways sorry. i'm glad i have friends like you. i wonder how i could ever face you guys again. thank you guys. and again it wasnt her fault. its never been her fault. its the idiot who booked the wrong date.
hmm. i wonder tho if that idiot seriously exists. pfft.

done.

2008-06-29T03:57:00.002+08:00

ahh.
woke up 3.15 in the morning just for food.
seriously now i cant sleep without eating before hand.
wth is gonna happen to me.
well hopefully filling myself up might get me bigger.
i mean literally.
nyeaha.

well auditions went well. very.
really need to get a bigger bass amplifier man.
any kind souls out there willing enuf? hehehe
only four bands were goin to get thru.
hmm. wonder hows that.
if we do get thru, well i'm gonna kick ass on the bass man.
which in fact without any doubt i obviously do ofcourse. hehehehe

and das, you can kiss me if both our bands get thru.
i can promise you that. hahahaha!

done boi

2008-06-24T19:05:00.002+08:00

quick wrap up of my weekends.
hmm.

SAT:
had kenduri for my nephew.
which i did not sleep for more than 12hrs.
cool tho. its been long since i saw so many peeps at my hse. haha.
excluding the bunch of friends who always come over. they dont count.
heh.
sorry if i didnt layan some ppl. paham2 jer lah eh saper.
busy siol main monster hunter. kene concentrate.
hahah.

SUN:
err. ouh!
i slept like a pig and woke up at around 6 in the afternoon.
basically nth special. thats like what i do every single day. during hols of course.
and went out to chill with friends.

hmm.
auditions this coming Sat. how exciting. haha.
dont know why but eversince we've been playing songs from paramore,
i'm beginning to notice that hayley seems to be getting hotter.
nyeaha.
mayb i've got a CRUSH CRUSH CRUSH on hayley. ahh. stupid.
songs to play;
Born For This, Here We Go Again, Thats What You Get
yeaa.

done boi.

2008-06-12T04:45:00.002+08:00

i think this lil ol' blog getting abit rusty ey.
heh.
well at least i try.

holidays are such a bore.
i know everyone wants to work.
but i'm just plain lazy.
yeap. lazy shami.
heh.

friends goin over to port dickson.
dang. how i wish my plans didnt clash.
arghh.
well i wish u guys a safe trip nevertheless.
and enjoy urselves guys!

done.

2008-05-30T22:10:00.002+08:00

bored.
holiday mood again. damn.
well, lets just hope my application for attachment goes thru.
then i'll be earning some bucks.

i feel discouranged today.
dont know why but i sure do.
hmm.
lets just hope tmrs gonna be an exciting day out.

done.

2008-05-19T01:46:00.001+08:00

wont be blogging fer quite a while now.
so u'll rarely see me online.
best wishes readers.

2008-04-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

now this is what i call my lowest point in life.
problems surround me every where i turn.
lets just hope this passes quickly and things go back to how they used to.

2008-04-25T21:09:00.003+08:00

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
i lost my headphones.
i cant find my specs.
so i'm basically blind now.
i broke my psp LCD screen.
sum it all up, i lost lots of money.

FUCK IT.
i feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucked up.
why am i having such luck.
arrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
screw this.

2008-04-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

alright.
tomorrows Adzombie's birthday boys!
lets have a private function shall we. nyeaha.
tak sabar siol mau tunggu dia bukak present.
confirm member peng.
hahahaha

done all the wrapping and now its time to wait for the day.
i know this sounds gay but what the hell, i'm really happy for him.
now Adz can buy cigaweed n booze!
wooohooo!

but too bad i'm broke at the moment.
harhar

all done boy.

2008-04-20T02:05:00.001+08:00

hell hath no fury on a womans' scorn.
trust me, i know.

2008-04-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

booooorrriiiinnngg.
someone please brighten up my life.
entice me.
nyeaha.

2008-04-17T19:24:00.009+08:00

aye.
i'm uber bored right now.
smoking helps quite abit.
i'm practically smoking with one hand and typing with another.
actually i dont see any good in it at all.
shiets.

fo' all u youngens out there, smoking is harmful.
i know.
ironic eh? it coming from me.
nyeaha.

was raining when i got to yishun just now.
as luck brought it, was a good thing i didnt bring my tigers out for a stroll.
well nothing much happened it school.
just thot of showing some pics i took two days back.
dang i really need a life.
or maybe someone in my life to make it better, even exciting.

this looks so wrong in many ways.

i got you SETOH!

done boy.

2008-04-17T06:40:00.003+08:00

aww damn.
slept for the whole night yest.
now thats what i call some major sleep time.

ohhh. i simply have to write about yest.
it all seemed to good to be true.

first off, i friggin saw Ms Starbucks!
what a way to start off the morning! i was like one psychopath
staring at her. but too bad she didnt notice me. dang.
ouhhh the sweetness.

later in the afternoon. school caught fire.
believe it.
the electronics block, block 7 caught fire.
one of the practical rooms was smoked up.
it was hilarious because no one seemed to care, even the teachers.
and one more thing.
i broke the toilet door.
nyeahahaha

done boy.

2008-04-14T17:03:00.000+08:00

what tha fuck i'm like so friggin tired boy..
its been 3 weeks since i had to wake up early like today..
dang..
now i'm finally home..

my summary for today;
went to sch with Ref n Diq..
help them in school along the way..
class did its best to freshen up my memory, it all worked well..

was glad april brought me some new surprises this time..
now i'm willing to get to sch n know even more people..
nyeaha..
fuck shit i'm just too tired now..
time for abit of shut eye(in this kinda hour-.-)

done..

2008-04-13T15:00:00.000+08:00

nyeaha.
long awaited UPDATE.

schs gonna start again soon. FINALLY.
3 weeks of sweet boredom had ended.

bought ma new tigers yesterday with The Ref & Adzombie.
far east was the venue.
check em out!

just like that, thats what i talkin bout!
i'm sure hisyam simply LOVES my shoes.
nyeaha!

2007-10-10T08:19:00.000+08:00

aku malas larh sey. harharhar
ade jugak org nak bace blog mati ni.
ape fad? semangat seMINIT ehk?
huahuahua!

ader jugak org suroh update. dah lah kene buang tepi.
kene rabak SIOL! gua takleh carry arh!
ni kes btol2 tak kesah lagi nyer. fuh!
dier ingatkan aku sampah agaknyer tak.
entahlah nak, GASAK kau lah!
hahahahahahaha.
malas pulak nak type english banyak2 cam dulu.
tak paham? dont understand? SCREW you.

aku binGIT! aku giLER! btol tak? harhar.
da lah mendak pat rumah. otak mati siol. mintak ampun jugak.
rindu plak kawan2 ITE. haish. takpe! next week kiter jumpa ya sahabat-sahabat JACKASSku!
kiter gi serbu NENEK!
hahaha

lagik brape hari jer rayer. puase tak lepas, nak celebrate. sape terase tu ko nyer pasal larh.
jiwe ngan aku.
hurhur.
cuti skola malas nak keje, dok umah diam2. jadi anak mak. tak puase step jer.
gi geylang ngok chicks ngan members(berterabuh siol MINAH! MATS pon samer lah), lepak2 pat esp jer lah keje aku nie(satu kali jer. hehehe)
hahahaha
da mcm bdk hanyut kan kan kan? TAK DPT LARH SEY!
huhuhu

hmm.. bedok? cck? syam.. ade 2 syam! macam mane nie? mana satu beb? suspect ko ckp bedok. sal aku tak bilang ko sal cck.
hehehehehe
tapi bedok pon ouhkay kan botak? 'tempat' HAWT, and FUCK NO i don't have a fetish for 13 yr olds, got that botak?
hahaha
kalau pasal cck, aku leh ckp 'tempat' dier SWEET jer arh.
arh! aku pening. hatiku terbelah dua. MACAM PAHAM.
hahahahaha

ouhkay lah. sape2 yg teraser yg bace blog aku(yg tak puase ker, aku cumer nak luarkan perasaan marah dan dendam di blog ni jer. paham2 larh korang), minta maaf jer lah banyak2 yer. salah silap maafkan lah yer. kot terkasar taip ker. minta maaf jer k. amin

abes pon!

2007-09-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

ahh.. feel soooooo satisfied today..

went out.. guess what.. i went SHOPPING luh! huahuahua..
met up with fadhly, azmie n danil..
erm.. went to peninsula firstly.. went to buy my cardigan and jeans..
total spent at peninsula = $40
told fadhly, azmie n danil to go ahead first since i wanna look around far east.. n also azmie had to go for work..
then after that went around to shop at far east.. with my sis n ida.. found this super cool vest in shoes..
total spent at far east = $90
after that went to ngee ann city, to check out some of fad's stuffs..
amount HE spent on his clothing at ngee ann city's PUMA outlet = $108
then fadhly had to go home since he promised his mum that he had to break fast at home..
after all that we went to bugis(me, my sis, ida n danil) to look at some clothes..
dan showed me the place where he bought his super cool clothes.. bought one short sleeved smart shirt and one long sleeved one..
total spent at bugis village = $45
then i offered to give danil a treat since he was to patient to follow me so far along the way.. the four of us went to eat at bugis's burger king..
after all that shopping, danil had to go to kembangan to meet up with his mum..

well.. that was a super fun day of shopping.. felt sorry for some of my friends who had to follow me everywhere i went.. sorry guys!

my arsenal of clothing had been reloaded and i'm ready for BATLLE! huahuahua..

overall spent today = $185
that was well into my budget..

next up! FADHLY'S shopping spree! weeeee~!

done!

2007-09-14T04:59:00.000+08:00

good morning.. its 5 am now.. since i don't wanna go to bed n snooze my socks off, i think blogging might just do the trick..

first day of fasting was great.. managed to fast thru the day.. actually wanted to go to sch yest.. but was too tired n it seemed as if i didn't have the energy to get up at 7 am.. so i decided to skip sch but still come for the phase test luh.. tot it was gonna be diff tho... but ended up quite ouhkay.. not that bad.. but its a little intimidating luh doin the pass few phase tests with the smartest bastards in my class.. they finished in like what, less then 45 mins.. bloody hell i took 1 friggin hour man..
but still.. was happy tho when my teacher said none of us from my batch of students doin the test failed.. me n syam was super glad..

after all that.. went home alone.. as usual.. hmm.. mayb i can get to Acer HQ today.. finally grab that laptop.. well depends luh.. if theres still any ounce of energy left in this body..

btw..

i'm HAWWWT!
huahuahua..

still get the kicks saying that.. hurhur

done boi..!

2007-09-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

ahh.. final day to eat.. gosh.. cant believe its finally here..

went to sch as usual.. went home at arnd 1++ cuz the other guys are having thier tests(mines tmr so wish me luck!).. went home with botak to change.. met the others at arnd 6++..

wanna noe whr we went to eat? hahaha.. BEACH ROAD.. TULANG BEB.. power.. haha.. after so long.. having that as dinner n with ur closest buds is such fun.. wished sufi was there tho.. but afterall he did have a good reason of not making it out with us..

after dinner, went to lucky plaza.. had POOL session with the guys.. fun, as usual.. FINALLY we guys had a chance to go out together.. no bubble boys today.. good.. well all decided to head for home after an hour of pool.. thats basically it.. i don't understand whats so interesting to read actually.. and furthermore i don't see any point typing any..
hahaha.. i'm just crazy i guess.. or maybe i'm trying to be impressive towards someone? i dont know.. huahuahua

ye ye puase da nak start.. mampos..

done..

2007-09-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

alright.. this is gonna feel all wierd but i'm gonna try posting back more often this time..

went to school as usual.. same old shit different day.. played pakau as usual.. shitty hisyam won undisputed.. bloody botak.. hahaha.. after school went to acer hq.. went to repair bro's lappy.. saw one HAWT HAWT chick.. wif her mom/sis? we didnt know oso lah.. only botak, fad n azmie followed along.. den three babus came to my place.. hahas.. all left arnd 7.15..

one advice..
look out for your friends, cuz thier the only one who are there when ur in need.. true friends of course.. =)
and also.. WATCH YOUR BACK..

done..

chalet..

2006-11-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

our three days chalet was exciting.. well.. the four of us were the first ones to arrive.. mi, irni, yan n aidil.. great place.. we were well situated.. our bbq place was quite hidden.. so not many ppl intruded on us..

esp e nite wen we had our last day.. dat was damn funny.. hahas.. many great things happened.. played wif fire.. went to e beach n became crazy.. dat was mi n small siddiq.. didnt noe i can be so crazy like dat.. hahas.. n oso our constipation thingy was quite succesful.. hahas..

hmm..

tmr i'm gonna start werk at e hotel.. finnaly i've got a job.. at least i can earn sum money.. its better actually.. cnnt wait to start werk n earning sum money fer myself.. n also mayb i cant hav dat much time to post new stuffs on my blog.. so gonna be quite buzy n lazy la.. ok den..

busted..

2006-11-15T14:00:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yest e guys cam to my hse to place de stuffs for chalet.. yea.. we hav de constipation thingy! muahaha.. watch out outsiders..

hmm.. at night decided to hav a puff at machanic shop.. was having a fine time.. didnt notice the police car parked right beside us.. we quickly extinguished our ciggies and went away.. half way i told e guys to run back to my hse.. wah run lyke mad..

wen reached hm.. yan suddenly called mizan.. told mi, amad n mizan hu reached hm first to cum down.. the police had caught him.. wah.. damn shag man.. seriously didnt wan to go down again..
bud.. yan suddenly appeared at my hse n started laughing.. sialan one.. bluff abt dis matter.. we all whack him on e spot.. lol..

first time mi runnin frm e police.. damn scary sia.. hahas..

n dun ever play a joke concerning the police.. its seriously not funny.. lol..

hmm..

2006-11-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

lets see.. wads dere to write abt these past weeks..

hmm..

went out to find a job at Grand Coptorne Waterfront Hotel(damn long sia de name).. went wif aidil.. Recommended by our frens to apply as a banquet boy dere.. nice n frenly ppl dere.. de person in-charge dere was also frenly.. we talked abt de working etiquttes of de hotel.. lookin forward to werkin dere actually..

after de interview.. since we didnt know which bus to take to tiong bahru interchange.. we decided to hav a 'walk-a-ton'.. hahas.. hmm.. we actually walked frm e hotel and to sumwhr quite amazing.. we actually walked frm e hotel to clark quey.. lol

bud nvm.. its was a nice walk anyways.. thank god we didnt get lost..

well.. dats all i guess.. lookin forward to our chalet.. bud having a wierd feeling.. i guess i'm not dat excited abt de chalet as e others..

next tyme den..

my lonely days..

2006-11-13T18:48:00.000+08:00

hmm..? new blog.. nothing quite amazing actually..

been bored wit myself dis few days.. or even weeks.. since i've got nth to do at hm..
even though i went out to find a job, well.. lets just say nothing goes out how you wld hav it planned..

well.. heres my first post for dis new blog.. ouh..!
remember to relink me again..

sweetsweet-paranoia.blogspot.com

thx..